shattered

I have never seriously thought about walking away from teaching; until today. I seem to have offended the district on a level that they want to suspend me for 5 days without pay. Really? Did I smack a kid? Call them stupid? Am I am bad teacher? How about coming in late everyday? Nope. I yelled a a secretary. After she called me a liar in front of my peers. Over a question I had asked about my time card.

None of this makes a single bit of sense to me. People say ride it out.. it doesn't make sense. Nothing in the district does. It will all blow over. Well it hasn't and it won't and now I am not sure I can bring myself to walk back in that building.

Its not overly about the money. Although it is about a 2% of my pay fine. Its actually more about the fact that I have watched teachers be rude and mean to students, to other staff, to the out of the classroom staff and just about everyone they come in contact with. I know an aide who was stalking and threatening a teacher and nothing came of it; except a "you need to be nicer" I am truly and deeply confused. I had a bad day, yelled, went and apologized and accepted responsibility. And this is what happens? I am treated worse than the student who brings drugs to school. Who assaults a teacher or another student? Really.

I quit. Even if its just caring. I quit.

The Educated

Seriously,

I am sitting here in a meeting with 20+ other teachers and they have been reading this article for the past 20 minutes. Am I the only one done???? Oh no, wait, the English teacher in front of me is done. She looks about as irked as I feel. How can it possibly take so long to read an article? Its a long one, but not that long.


Oh hey!! That is cool. I can log on to the computers they are using and send messages. I like this option. should use it with the students.

Alright, Alright

I am thinking I might get back to writing. Maybe I will make it a habit. Ha. Honestly the only habit I currently have that is worthwhile is getting up in the morning and many mornings I could do without that. Its the whole pesky work thing.

This may have been the hardest school year I have had in awhile. Changes within the District, being in a hallway essentially by myself, the indifference of my students, the crazy evil troll of an interim principal. I am looking forward to the end. Its about time to start over again. But who knows what next year looks like. I am trying to not think too much about it. The whole ostrich head in the sand thing.

We'll see.